Laura Whitmore talks survivor’s guilt as she opens up on Caroline Flack’s death

Love Island host Laura Whitmore has opened up about the tragic death of her pal Caroline Flack, who took her own life on February 15.

Laura returned to work the day after the news, despite bosses urging her not to, with her saying: "I just felt I had so much I wanted to say."

The telly regular spoke to Kate Thornton on her podcast White Wine Question Time, with Kate opening by asking the simple question: "How are you?"

Laura said: "I'm ok. I just got back from South Africa yesterday. I think it's really good to talk.

"Part of me just wants to lock myself away and not talk to anyone.

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"I've had a lot of people ask me how I am and sometimes I feel guilty. I'm like, 'I'm fine, I'm here, I'm ok'. It's people who aren't here, the family of Caroline, and I feel guilty for so many people asking how I am because I'm here."

She added: "It's a weird one. I don't really know how I am.

"It changes and then sometimes I'll be watching TV and I'll laugh at something and you feel guilty for laughing and then you'll forget and then you'll remember so kind of all over the place but I suppose there's no right way or wrong to feel.

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"It's just whatever you feel in the moment and talking about it. It's so important that we talk."

Laura explained that she found out about Caroline's death on Twitter, adding: "It was something on Twitter that someone had tweeted initially that I disregarded because there's always so much stuff."

But her friend who was staying with her called her and told her to come home, which is when Laura looked on Twitter again.

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She said: "We live in a world where we find out our news through social media and we don't know what's right, what's wrong, fake news and it wasn't the way that you'd think you'd find out a friend has passed away, so I just got home as quick as I could."

Fighting back tears, Laura continued: "And that's when I came in and my friend said it was true."

Rather than worrying about herself, Laura explained she wanted to ring boyfriend Iain Stirling, who was also good friends with Caroline.

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She said: "I knew that he was out, it was his day off and he was out with a few people in the pub having a few drinks and I just wanted him to get to a safe space, not to be exposed and everyone wants to see what your reaction is."

Laura also spoke of taking over hosting duties of Love Island from Caroline, admitting: "It happened so quick. I had to make a decision with a day and at the time."

She said: "I wanted to message her but they said just wait until we know if it's going to happen, because there's contracts to do, and I said I'm just not agreeing anything until I've said to Caroline.

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"But she actually text me first, saying, 'I really hope you get to do it,' but it's still a s*** situation to get a job so great in those situations."

It has now been reported that Laura has signed a £1million deal to host the next series of Love Island, which will air this summer.

White Wine Question Time with Kate Thornton is available to listen to on all major podcast streaming services

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